Far away

I hope one day you’ll see me living through with that.

It’s just a burn on my heart, nothing more.

You’ve left with me a shadow creeping me to death,

Transforming temporal lobes to open doors.

How can I throw away?

How can I forget

If everything I have

Reminds me all the same?

The same

I pretend I live, I pretend I love,

Losing everything that I’ve ever found.

But I still fear

That my existence

Goes on day after day.

I’m still in the cage of our common stuff

And I tell myself everyday, that I’m enough.

But I’m still here

Unfortunately

And I still have to pay.

And you’re on other edge of this damned world

And can’t hear my prayers, started from the words:

“Why aren’t you near

Me this evening

And left me on the way?”

And everyday I dream about you all night long.

But honestly, I know the reason why you’re gone.

You’re not here,

And I thank you,

That you are far away!

When I stay alone in my little world,

I try to recall the things have gone wrong,

But past’s in the shell of ashes and shadows.

That’s how the defeat smells, and I had to swallow.

I’ve created and idol of tales ‘bout you.

Fallen in love with it and believed it’s the truth.

But now the fog’s gone, and it’s obvious to me.

I loved only idol, not the personality.